Faded Memory of a Bully

Dear Cockroach, umm you do know what a protection order is right?  No contact at all which means by phone, email, text, facebook, or being within 500 feet.  What could you possibly gain by calling me now?  Do you think I suddenly forgot that you’re a lying, cheating, pathetic drug addict thief?  I can’t believe that I let my gaurd down, forgot your number and answered the phone.  I knew the number looked sort of familiar.  Here’s the thing, I don’t really think about you.  You were a bad dream that I am lucky to not have anymore. I am grateful that you chose not to speak, I really hate having to fill out police reports.  The best part of this little episode is that I have no physical reaction to you.  Guess what?  I’m not holding my breath, my hands aren’t shaking and that little place in my stomach that turns into a ball when I’m upset is flat as a pancake.  I guess you’re gonna have to find someone else to bully, it doesn’t work on me anymore.  I can’t be the last gullible girl in this world, move on to the next sucker already. Somebody out there had to want an almost 50yr old who is emotionally stunted at 16 and lives with his mother, I don’t understand why someone hasn’t snatched you up yet.  Yes that was bitchy, but I’m allowed to be when it comes to this cockroach. I’m still holding back but the day is coming when I let it all out there, no holds barred.

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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