Click Your Heels Together Three Times

Did you ever have one of those moments when you knew this is not the life you are supposed to be living?  I’m not talking about the fantasies of a perfect house and job, or maybe I am.  Maybe just maybe I have no idea what the heck I’m talking about, yep I bet that’s it.  Anybody who has read my posts know that I intensely dislike my job, I swear it’s trying to suck my soul right out of me. Yes I’m aware that I am being overly dramatic, but it is really kicking my ass!  I always bring something with me to read at lunch, so I can escape from optical reality, usually it’s a book. Today I brought the new Mary Jane’s Farm magazine. I bought it last night but didn’t get to look at it because I was canning salsa right up until bedtime.  I find such inspiration from this publication, the beautiful stories of transformation.  Women who leave the corporate world to follow their dreams and succeed.  Why can’t that be me?  I am a big ole chicken first off, and I haven’t found my thing yet.  I lack the discipline and motivation, at least that’s what I tell myself. I am so emotionally exhausted from work most days that I can barely keep up with the stuff I have to do let alone what I want to do. Yes, I’m still a dog chasing her tail.  I’m no longer at point A, but I’m still searching for point B, and in no way am I following a straight line.