I did not mean to instill panic in my previous post, I’m sorry C.G and H.B. Let me be clear I am NOT afraid! Was last night unsettling? Yes, but I just reached over, made sure my gun was within reach and went back to sleep. It has been more than a year if he was going to do something he would have by now. He thrives on intimidation, I just ignore him. If he is following me when I’m driving, I don’t panic, I pretend he is not there. I hate that I sometimes get that ball in my stomach or start holding my breath, but I’ll be damned if he will ever know it. Eventually he’ll get bored or die right? I’m not 100% sure I wasn’t having a dream within a dream. I don’t think I was but I could have been.
Since I was already chock full of anxiety I decided to go up and finish patching the flat part of the roof. My ex decided to come pick the kids up before I finished, ugh. He was all duh ” what we do roofing now” let me put it this way, I have never once regretted my decision to divorce him. If that wasn’t bad enough while I was up there my creepy neighbor the leprechaun was out doing leaves. Do not make eye contact, I live by this rule. I swear he really is three feet tall and a pervert. If I wasn’t friends with his sister, I would tell his overly loud alcholic wife what kind of creep she’s married to. Ick!
Now that all is said and done, I am really grateful that today is done and over. I think I’m going to go soak in the tub until the water is cold and I am all wrinkley. Water always makes me feel better.