My well meaning family really cracks me up sometimes. A collective light must of gone off in the last day or two because all of a sudden everybody wants me to come over for dinner. I do have plans and even if I didn’t I would be ok.
When the family matriarch is gone, the rules change and I lost one on each side of the family. My Grandma moved away with my Aunt and now to get the whole family together someone has to die or get married. The last time was my Grandma’s funeral, I think, yes I’m pretty sure about that. When my Mother passed it became easier for my brothers to go off to their in laws.
I guess I don’t get why everybody is always concerned about me? I like the peace and quiet, if I could get someone to take the dogs overnight it would be absolutely perfect. To be honest sometimes I have to make myself go to things like this. I usually have a good time but I sure do drag my feet getting there. I am going to the same place I went last year for Thanksgiving, it was an odd combination of personalities and it was the best Thanksgiving I had since my Mom died.
Now that my cousins are older and married or engaged it really does make me feel like Cousin It. My problem not theirs I know this. I am grateful for my wonderful family and I know they love me, I think that they are pretty awesome too. It’s just when I don’t have the kids for some of the holidays. it’s not the same.
I have always been blessed with the best friends anybody has ever had, not that I am partial or anything. Some of those friends the kindred kind become family. The Universe always give you what you need, I guess in this life I need really good friends. I am sure it balances out the bad choices that I tend to make, I consider myself blessed regardless.
Maybe I am so secure in the fact that I know that I am loved and that is why I am so comfortable by myself. I am really not sure but I do know that a lot of times I would rather be alone in the peace and quiet than in a group of people. I do have issues with the loss of light, I miss my sun and sometimes it does affect my mood. Holiday depression that I don’t really get and I am happy that I don’t get it. If I could bake a cookie or read a story to prevent it for somebody else, I would do it in a heartbeat.
The people that worry about me because I am not in a relationship, umm I am just fine thank you very much. One less person to try and make happy during the holidays is the way I look at it and I am saving quite a bit of money by staying single. Maybe someday it will happen for me, but it’s ok I am in no hurry.