Mixed Emotions


When I pulled out of my driveway this morning, there was a police vehicle at the top of my driveway.  If I drove straight across the street “BAM” I would drive right into him. There is a part of me that feels fuzzy and safe. Then there is the part of me that is sooo embarrassed because they know all about the most stupid mistake I ever made…..Cockroach. I was never even a blip on their radar before him.

All of my experience with the local police department has been because of the Cockroach.  The first time I was ever pulled over was when I was forty yrs. old.  He clocked me doing 48 in a 35, and he let me go. It was in one of those speed trap little towns that you get a ticket in for driving 36 mph. I don’t know why he let me go but he did. My daughter was with me so she always teases me by saying it was because she was so calm about the whole thing, while I was all panic palooza!

Don’t get me wrong as long as Cockroach breathes they can hang out in front of my house all they want. It also keeps things in perspective for me, it’s a reminder of why “single” is good. If I am ever crazy enough to date again I think that I have earned a free background check.

Later that morning at work I heard a loud noise and I turned to a coworker and asked “what the heck was that noise?” “Some car flying down the road!” She barely had the word road out and the first police car went flying, I mean flyyying. Three more followed and in the middle of it all our mailman was buzzing the door. I let him in and I was like hurry up before it’s gun shots in the hood too!  It’s never a dull moment on that side of town.

Sometime in my day for some reason I stopped and paid attention to the way I was feeling. My job still makes me physically ickk. It is not where I am supposed to be and I really need to get out before I get used to the paycheck with my new raise. Change is scary and this economy sucks, that is not the best combination. I have to listen to my gut and it says get out, so I am still looking.

I stopped at Giant Eagle on the way home today and the smell of flowers hit me before I even made it through the doors.  I was tempted by the pot of glitter roses, I haven’t had much luck growing those so I walked away. Then there was a pot of hydrangeas…… that I can grow….and I don’t have pink……they were so pretty…..I was good and walked away. It was hard but I did it.pink_hydrangea-10319

My evil plan is to wait until Friday when everything is on clearance!

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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2 Responses to Mixed Emotions

  1. I understand the job situation, I would love to get out of mine right now.

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