Just Sayin’

CM retired and left me forever today….. 😦  I get bonus points for not crying today, although she left early I think for that very reason.

There were a few of us that went out to celebrate or mourn depends on your perspective. CM was upset that Olive Cabbage made her way into the group and there isn’t enough time or interest on my part to try and figure out that one…….

I made sure CG sat next to me because it is so hard to work with your favorite partner in crime and to never see her. I reiterate the frowny face. 😦

I need the paycheck, it’s that simple. I am biding my time until I find something better or I get fired…..which ever comes first. I am only one person and I won’t kill myself doing a job I hate…that’s for damn sure.

I haven’t spent 3 hours in a bar in….I can’t tell you how long. I was good and responsible, I could probably do a cartwheel in a straight line if I had to and wasn’t wearing a skirt.

There were two in the group that were well……trashed….I’m fine but I am not driving all the way out wherever R lives because I have had a few and M wasn’t ready to leave and she works there 2 days a week so I know she will find a ride. It’s a holiday weekend and although I think you shouldn’t take a risk anytime, you definitely shouldn’t do it on a holiday weekend.

I still don’t have a roof and I haven’t heard a peep from helpful neighbor guy.

Here is the kicker that had me cracking up the whole way home. I have mentioned before how my old boss….literally and figuratively is always hitting on me…..I just don’t get boys. I am not attracted to him in the least and I know that I have mentioned that before……first of all kept touching me. Once on my arm, once on my back, and once on my leg. I did say out loud “why do you keep touching me”?….as I backed away. How much clearer can a girl be?

About forty five minutes or so later he has a girl meet him at the bar. Dark hair, size negative 2, twenty years too young, he is combining his mother and his daughter the two people he has loved more than anything and he keeps dating her……and he has the attention span of a gnat! I just wanted to say “good god girl run!!!!!”

Why would he bring this poor girl to a retirement party? Why does it make me laugh? Beats the hell out of me. I would make a shrink crazy I’m sure…I think what I think because it makes sense to ME and I don’t care what others think!


Have to work a couple of hours tomorrow….time and a half I will take it it, it doesn’t even matter that it is only a few hours and that I don’t get to sleep in on a Saturday.

I keep looking for my little window (of opportunity) to show up so I can jump through it….but it hasn’t shown up…and I must not be much of a window builder because that’s not working either.

I will find my way out of this mess….I know I will…it’s this crappy limbo full of crying and stress that I hate. I always figure it out in the end…..Zia

Thoughts after I hit “publish”

PS. It occurred to me when I was in the shower……my former boss has already had “that moment”. The very first time he hit on me, when I couldn’t believe I was hearing what I was hearing…(when SB said I needed a smart phone to record so I could own his company)when I felt like a deer in the headlights and I remember feeling very very small. I have never been hit on by somebody that made me feel so icky as I did when he did the first time. Even if I was attracted….which I’m not…..that day it ended before it ever began. Just sayin’…….

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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