Have you ever had that feeling…..that you can almost put your finger on….almost, and then it is gone? All day long this is how I have felt and it is driving me crazy!!!
The only person I can lie to is myself, everyone else can see all of my emotions right on my face.Maybe I am just having a weak moment, I let myself have them occasionally. I don’t like it when I have these moments, but who does…right?
Is it crazy to fight with yourself? Don’t worry it’s not out loud or anything…..but seriously I have some serious internal conflict going on. I never do anything easy and I have that……..for lack of a better expression “the seven year itch”. The last time it was this strong, I left my ex husband and my mom died three days later. That was my darkest time…ever.
My job, this house, my time or lack of it, is all unacceptable!! I feel like it is time to move on and if I was a snake I would be shedding my skin about right now. There is a shake up coming, I just can’t tell from what direction. It’s not a feeling of foreboding…it doesn’t feel bad, just different. I mentioned that I never do anything easy…do I have the energy to get through it? I hope so!
I have a new scary friend in the basement….she’s pretty big. If she were on top of a 50 cent piece, her long legs would dangle over a considerable amount. This was as close as I was getting, I am not looking to get bit again any time soon.
I was amazed that the girl actually did her own laundry with that spider lurking on the wall. It’s the first thing that I look for after I try not to kill myself on those stairs and actually get to the basement.
On a lighter note, I answered the phone at Pier 1 today and said “thank you for calling Pier 1 optical may I help you” Holy crap was my face red! It was crazy busy today compared to yesterday and everybody was nice, so that helped.
I didn’t get nearly enough done on this mini vacation…time, there just isn’t enough of it…..Zia