Permission To “Be”

I have been working really hard on trying to not stress out about things that I have no control over. Some days are better than others. Considering how my day started….I think I managed to chill out and turn it around.

Three inches of water in my basement….can’t do anything about it now. When it goes down I will put the root killer down the drain, I have to wait. I don’t know where it drains out and that is what has stopped me in the past because the root killer is toxic. There are big cracks in my basement floor, four of them that are new this year, so either it is from a tree root ( a big one), or the Hellmouth moved from Sunnydale to under my house.Buffy_hellmouth

Pulling out of my driveway is tricky, there is a bend…people like to fly around it, no fun and it’s dangerous. Today I had to stop half way out for guess who?  Really, come on guess? If you said Cockroach than ding ding we have a winner. I didn’t realize it until I was behind his stupid bald head at the stop sign….the tattoo will give it away every time. Why is he driving down my road, he has no business being on that road. I don’t drive down his mothers road….ever. I was so very angry! The blood boiling, spitting fire kind! I thought I dealt with my anger….boy was I wrong. I could have ripped his face right off, I know it is wrong to hate…..but I hate him. I could never be on a jury where a woman is pleading temporary insanity over a man…my response would be “amen sister!”  Idiot!

Since we are on that subject…if one more person says “are you dating, because I know this great guy?” STOP!!!!!!!!! No! No! No! I will date when I am ready and nobody will be fixing me up. When it’s time, the Universe will drop some poor unsuspecting schmuck in my path and I will go from there, but until then…no thanks!

I wandered around Barnes and Noble with a coupon today, I decided on this

PT said I would like it a while ago, so I will give it a try. I am feeling the need to escape for a while, so I will try this world out. I came home, poured myself a glass of wine, sat on the couch with my blanket and started reading. I didn’t worry about anything that still needed done before Tuesday….I just read, it was so nice.

The girl will not be happy, she is in charge of the bookshelf and has put me on a strict book diet….she tries. I just need another bookshelf, or a house with a library…how much fun would filling up new shelves be?!!  I think my idea of fun….is different than everybody else.

Seriously slowing down is on my list for the new year, lists are extra important this year. How many years start with a new moon? Two full moons in a month are called a blue moon….what’s it called when there are two new moons in a month? It’s definitely an omen of change, I still can’t shake this “something is coming” feeling. Anything is better than a demon coming up through the basement floor right? I know that I have mentioned before that I tend to be a lot over dramatic 🙂

I went from girl spitting fire, to girl quietly reading….I can go without a lot of things…books are not one of them….Zia


About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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