Friends….that word doesn’t always mean the same thing to everyone. I am one of those loyal people, who if I consider you a friend….you’re stuck with me.
I usually don’t have a problem distinguishing between friend and acquaintance…nobody is perfect that line has been crossed in the past. I hope that I have become somewhat smarter…..I hope.
When one of the very few people that I consider a friend from work wanted to get together tonight, I kinda knew what it was going to be about.
It sucks to not really be able to say fully what you want to. When you see this smart, sensitive person that you consider friend….going towards a very confused not so nice girl like a moth to a flame….what do you do? I try really hard to stay out of other peoples business….and I didn’t listen to anybody when they tried to warn me away from the cockroach…I felt like a giant cliche tonight.
This girl deserves way better than what she is interested in, I tried to be subtle in my advice..”tread lightly”, “expand your circle of friends”, “just be careful”… I even threw out the “I am cynical straight girl, I can’t offer any advice, I can only listen” No, this is not the girl I had that dream that was induced by the twist in the book club book. I do think she wants to join my book club so yeah!
It’s just so hard to be Switzerland when I want to scream “this girl is bad news and she will break your heart stay away from her!” Work is hard enough without all of this extra drama, I have to be sneaky subtle.
I hope that if I am ever crazy enough to date again…..which eventually I will…somebody will have my back. My prayer of late….”good Goddess protect me from myself!”….Zia