I did pretty good going through paper work, etc. and then I came across the cards and letters. I grabbed the box of letters because the big bundle on top were letters written to my grandmother when my mom was pregnant with me, underneath those letters were some of my old cards. Cards from my ex husband were easy to toss and those include the cards from the kids that he picked out and signed…..is that sad and or mean? There were cards from my mom, letters from my grandmother, and cards and letters from my friends, those were not so easy. How much space do they take up really?
The hardest ones for me to read were the ones from my childhood best friend. There was a wonderful woman that I used to babysit for, and I was at her house the minute that MTV aired, and it’s where I watched Little Darlings, and that same wonderful woman did my hair on my wedding day. Sorry had to give you some background…I know it was random. She used to tell me all of the time ” why do you let her walk all over you?” I guess I never noticed from when I was in high school and the statement was made, right up until ten years ago, then I started to notice. I took a picture of some of those cards and sent them to her. She of course responds with I love you my old friend or something like that. That was hard and brought on the waterworks but you can’t go back. She will probably never know how hurtful her words over the years have been, and I was the one to cut things off….so why does it still hurt?
Tucked in that box were more pictures…geez, I have them everywhere! Looking at those pictures now….and I know how much I have whined and stomped my feet about my weight gain, but somebody should have given me a cookie or something. I was way too skinny.
I forgot about that time when the girl was bigger than the boy, and why do I always tilt my head to the side?
I had so many of them and what was the point of saving them? I tossed these two today and I did feel a little guilty about it. Somewhere in my jewelry box is the lone one that I let myself keep.
I guess that I did pretty good cleaning out some things, but I have miles to go…..Zia