Funky Cloud

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This was the funky cloud I spotted at lunch time today….I forgot my book so this is what happens when I am bored and outside….. I found a straight rainbow in a funky cloud! It was a little chilly but it was too nice to sit inside. If I had a blanket I would have laid in the grass and taken a little siesta…..I swear I really could nap anywhere. I hear people talking about watching t.v. in bed and I don’t get it…..I am asleep in less than three minutes of crawling into bed.

It was a crazy kind of day…the kind that made me google Mercury in retrograde dates…..that’s next week…yikes! It was a hell of a day and everybody survived.

My dad was in town…..house building stuff and we met him for dinner which is always weird. He really has no clue what is important to any of us, the kids did try though. I mostly just observed. He is totally gray now and has some wrinkles around his eyes but is still aging well I guess. The weird part is that I felt nothing. I didn’t feel sad for me because I don’t have a relationship with him and I didn’t feel sad for the kids either. I didn’t feel angry, I didn’t feel happy to see him…..I felt indifferent…..how sad is that? He tried to ask me questions about my life, I gave vague answers and steered him towards the kids. I am really good at avoiding things.

I have said it many times before but I really do believe that in this life I am destined to be surrounded by strong women and weak men…..Zia

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About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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6 Responses to Funky Cloud

  1. That is on funky cloud.

  2. You know, I completely understand how you feel with your dad. Before my dad died, it was like we had no type of relationship and I felt he didn’t know me. But right before his death, I actually gave it a chance and it was good. A week later he passed away. Trying to make it right, is never for the other person, but more so for you. Not that my story has anything to do with you, but the fact that you went to dinner says a lot about you. Keep smiling Zia, you deserve too.

    • dragonflyzia says:

      Thank you for sharing your story and they do sound very similar. I am glad that you found some peace with it, maybe someday I will get there. Letting go has never been something that I do very well, but you never know. I hope you are having a great weekend! πŸ™‚

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