Going Within….

I don’t even know where to begin? I guess I will start with now and go backwards… The kids are home! Finally! I am okay by myself but it does seem like they have been at their dads a lot lately.  I have heard most of the grandmother horror stories through text so there were only a few new things….like her grandmother threatening to throw a knife at the girl. This is just crazy!

Speaking of family….my brother , the one who lives in Arizona posted on FB last night that he won’t miss another family get together? I immediately text him and he is now looking to move back home. He says it’s not for my cheating sister in law but because he misses his family. He ended it with “and now you can’t move away” my response “yes I can, I don’t belong here.

Earlier today I went to Barnes and Noble for the Outlander trivia. It was fun and I met some nice ladies….I was the youngest at this event and that surprised me.  I joined the private local Outlander FB page so who knows how many more people I will meet.

I signed up for course by Liz Lamoreux who is a huge inspiration…..I think I found her on Pinterest years ago. http://www.lizlamoreux.com/be-present-be-here/inner-excavate-along.html  I was so excited to find out that Amazon has a new Kindle Unlimited that you can try free for 30 days and the book you need for this course was included. I could probably decorate and supply five people with the necessary journals for this course…. so it will cost me nothing to delve deeper in myself.

I also signed up for a meditation course but that doesn’t start for a week…..a 21 day meditation class with Deepak Chopra sponsored by Oprah? I do spend a lot of time looking inward….I am hoping I will know when too much is too much.

When will I find the time to do all of this? Your guess is as good as mine.

Yesterday I started my day with a yoga double header, first a Yin and second a heated power. I ended up right in front of the heater in the power class and holy sweat Batman…I survived but just barely. I’ll probably do it again next week…..I’m crazy that way.

I went to my brother’s and it was fun visiting with my brother, my cousins and my aunt and uncle. My other brother sent my cousin a pocket rocket and that kept the grown adults busy for quite a while. 🙂

Later my cousin from out of state was in town visiting her birth family and she sent me a text so I watched fireworks with her and we couldn’t have had better seats. FullSizeRender(50)

I probably would have skipped the fireworks last night without the kids so it was a nice surprise. When we walked to our spot her friend that drove in with her stopped to video tape and I kept walking and found my spot and about 2/3rds of the way through my cousin came and stood next to me and said “I feel bad you are standing here by yourself.” I am always by myself and it’s funny how it bothers others to see me alone, but it doesn’t bother me to be that way.

The way I look at it…..if I am going to be by myself, there should be a beach involved…..Zia


About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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4 Responses to Going Within….

  1. I like your very last sentence. Hope you have a good week.


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