I really wanted to say big ass mess in the title but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. Trust me though….I definitely made a big ass mess.
Yesterday I found a brand new unopened copy of Bell Book and Candle for a $1.00 at a garage sale. I asked PT if she wanted to come over and evaluate my wardrobe, and watch the movie, thankfully she said yes. She was a really good sport and gave me her honest opinion on every piece of non work out clothing that I own. When I was done my bed looked something like this….
Well maybe that is a slight exaggeration, but you get the idea. In completing this quest I discovered a few things….first my suspicions about my nose last fall/winter and mold was accurate. I have to wash everything in my closet, my nose went crazy last night and isn’t too hot today either. It’s dry in the basement now and should be okay for a few more months until I move. I also learned that most of my shirts look better with black pants versus jeans.
I have found that there is a very fine line with my body and jeans, even when I was too skinny. If I find a pair of jeans that don’t give me “mom ass”, they make an over sized muffin top. If I find a pair of jeans that keep it all tucked in I have bad ass and the legs are huge. I may have a middle aged middle but I still have skinny chicken legs. Why do I keep putting myself through this? I think that I may seek out a pair of dress denim and go that route. When I was a size four I was always tucking my tiny muffin top (now I realize it was tiny) in so maybe my body type should stay away from jeans? It’s a thought at the moment.
I am too self conscious about my body and maybe if I had one of these it wouldn’t take me so long to find something to wear. I have clothes, I just have a bad body image….always have had a bad body image. PT was specific about using this type that doesn’t go over your bra. Every time that she would say “oh that’s cute” and I would say “I don’t wear this because I think it shows too much back fat” she would remind me of this slimming thingy.
When I was getting ready this morning in between sneezes I was thinking. Yes I have skinny arms and legs, I need the hips to balance the boobs….if I didn’t have the hips than I would be as unbalanced as Barbie…who wants that? I certainly don’t want Ken he’s arrogant and thinks he’s “all that”. Then I thought about the girl when she was little and how when she played with a Ken doll he was always called Angel, Spike, Giles or Xander…..growing up in my house was not normal I guess. See how I get off topic?
Once I had a big pile of clothes that fit on my bed, I sat down and put in the movie. I had never watched it all of the way through. When I had cable I watched part of it on a classic station but I never made it to the end. Once I realized why Jack Lemmon looked so familiar I only ever saw him as a Grumpy Old Man….he was so young.
PT left around eleven, I sat down at the computer with every intention to blog. My eyes were watery,and I was tired. All of that coupled with the wine, cheese ans trying on all of my clothes….I was exhausted, so I went to bed.
I woke up this morning and PT and I went to a local farmers market. We had breakfast, she a blueberry crepe and I had an omelette with roasted red peppers, tomatoes and asiago cheese. I left with rosemary foccacia bread….I’ll eat bread if it is worth it. My plan is to toast a slice and take it to work for lunch with fresh tomatoes in olive oil.
Now I am just working on my new laundry mound, and later I am taking the girl to the mall to look for jeans for school…..then I have to take her back to her fathers. They come home tomorrow thank goodness! I would just like to take advantage of this tax free weekend and buy the girl some school clothes. Then I am going back to PT’s for dinner….I have had a pretty full weekend……Zia