Wow! I really am at a loss…..My old neighbors the icky crazy ones, are claiming that they bought my picnic table from a yard sale. The crazy bipolar lady I would expect it from…but my actual neighbor…..I am shocked! Am I really going to do this? It’s a stupid picnic table. If those rat bastards want it so bad let them have it…..and choke on their burgers.
The very nice detective…the one who helped me survive the original Cockroach trauma called me today and filled me in on the lies. I will never see my stuff…the stuff that counts and if they want to go to such great lengths to lie about MY picnic table then they can keep it. I just don’t care enough for this battle…..yep, don’t care.
RD came over tonight, bless her heart….she was worried and even brought tissues. I was done crying by then. I rolled five pounds of meatballs this afternoon and that was when I had my little breakdown. You know what? I am emotional! I can’t help that….I’m a water sign..I never had a chance in hell. Some people look at it as a weakness and maybe it is. I can try really hard not to wear my heart on my sleeve but it always ends up there.
I let RD read my email to the detective and the part I wish I could take back…aka..the emotional part, she said was fine. I am not so sure. I am grateful for all this man has done for me over the past years and yet I am still in this loop.
Towards the end of our conversation he made a comment something like….”you have done nothing to instigate this you are the victim.” I never realized that I had a problem with this word until that moment. That word sounds so weak……Do you think I am weak? I’d like to think that I survived that trauma like a champ….not a victim. Poor guy…I hope he didn’t take offense.
RD came over and had some wine and cheese and made sure I was okay. I am FINE! Please don’t worry about me…this is just a hiccup. Maybe I wasn’t supposed to have a picnic table? Who knows why this is happening to me, but I will be okay. I survive…it’s my thing…..Zia
All of this for $9.50…..score! I didn’t get nearly as much as I wanted done today, but I did survive…..Zia