I’m sure that it makes me sound like a Scrooge but whew! I’m glad it’s over! I know that I have said before that it’s not the same without my mom, and… well this year was worse….my little brother didn’t come home. Every single one of his reasons was valid but for me, it was lonely.
The older my nephews get, the more apparent it is that they are spoiled. Do you remember how upset I was after the birthday party last year and how my nephew almost got a fruit basket for Christmas? Well….I mellowed and gave him a real present. Only to find out later that he told my father’s wife that she was stupid and useless!!!!!! Why does he still have teeth????? The girl was mad at her brother for telling me…I have a history of going off the deep end over things they aren’t supposed to tell me. I promised I wouldn’t and I won’t…..but this is ridiculous!
I left with a feeling of fleeting…..partly because of the snow and I wasn’t driving but the boy did a good job. The main roads were clear, the only tricky road was the hilly road with all of the bends by the river right by my brothers. Everything just felt wrong this year. I don’t know why…it just did.
I still want to make what was in my head so the family history project for next year will be done before Mother’s day for sure. I happened to come across another picture while I was gathering pictures to take to office max. I made a magnet for myself and both of my brothers. The brother tonight….I didn’t mention it to, I had the girl stealthily place it on their refrigerator. My absent brother knows that I will mail it to him soon. It’s just another mysterious thing to pop up that is nudging me towards this branch of my family tree. My grandmother had eleven children, here is a picture of the first five. My mother is the little girl in the front with the big haunting eyes. I don’t think that there is a picture of her before this moment. If there is, I have never seen it.
This will come in handy with the Scottish cooking that I am planning to do. I already know that the girl likes bannocks….a lot. I was very excited to get this!
Cozy, snug, and warm….what could be better than that? Merry Christmas my friends….I hope that wherever you are…your heart feels light and loved…..Zia