All Worked Up

Last minute girl again….why do I do it? I know why I do it….stupid 2014. The very last day to file your taxes is tomorrow and I just finished mine. I know I’m getting a refund and yet I put it off. I know it’s because of all of the trouble being hacked on my 2014 taxes has caused. Something so easy is now put off until the last minute. Truth? It’s not hard, it doesn’t take up that much time….it’s an emotional trigger nonetheless.

Saturday I had to put my big girl panties on and face another fear. I was always uncomfortable driving distances but it was never a fear. Staying in a fifteen mile radius for so long turned something uncomfortable into a fear. There was an Egyptian purification ritual lecture that I was interested in but it was a little drive. People drive this type of drive everyday and I give them credit. I like being fifteen minutes away from where I work. Now…I could have taken the freeway and it would have been about an hour and ten minutes or so…..I opted for the scenic route and it was about an hour and twenty five minute or so.

I followed our main strip for the longest time. Past the lake, where I had a moment of deja vu, and around and through the circle until I turned onto the next state route. Google maps had to do a lot of recalculating. It was Friday night when I discovered this way and decided to go and when I went to my phone the next morning that way wasn’t an option. Very strange. I found it without a hitch and got there in time.

It was a nice place, an interesting place. I will stay updated on what programs they have coming up in the future. I would definitely go back. Maybe I will be less tense the next time?

I learned a lot from the lecture. I don’t think it’s something I would incorporate into my daily life but for a special occasion or for dream work….maybe? There is a lot involved and when something like a hug “soils” you ….I’m out….I’m a hugger. I am very glad I went, plus I got to spend some time with Mountain Woman. My hour and a half drive was nothing compared to her three hour drive. She is always traveling here and there and she is a wealth of knowledge because of it.

Friday night was book club and I had my first breakdown of the weekend. It’s not a secret that I refuse to buy clothes because I don’t accept that this is the size I will stay. It’s been the never ending Winter and that hasn’t helped…..You know it’s bad when you overhear elderly patients talking about the Winter that won’t end. My jeans go on….they are just tight around my middle aged middle and I feel like a sausage when I wear them. Comfort right now is yoga pants. I love my yoga pants but I am tired of wearing them and the three weekend shirts in the rotation. I hated the way I felt Friday and Saturday over this issue. Yet….I still can’t bring myself to buy anything new. What’s the definition of insanity again? Oh…right…it’s me with this mindset.

I quit the corn at work. My desk snack of non gmo hand popped corn was not helping the situation and this is week two without it. I am better with the breakfast everyday and my snacking at work has been less, I guess we will see.  I did a little bit of laundry at KB’s and we made her peeps breakfast for the week while I was there. It seems to have went much faster in her kitchen versus mine. I had to make the same mess in mine and make dinner. It was a long clean up, which wasn’t so bad since I was listening to Front Range Radio. It’s been hit or miss the last couple of weeks so I was glad I had the opportunity to listen last night.

So that has been my week…getting all worked up over nothing. Well….it’s something to me…..yeah I’m working on it….Zia

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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2 Responses to All Worked Up

  1. Got hacked last year on my taxes. I feel your pain. Thank you for listening. It is much appreciated. Have a good week.

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