The Hard Cold

Last night is was a cold one here with below zero temperatures. My car gave me a struggle to start at -6 this morning. Thankfully it eventually started. The warming trend starts Saturday and I am grateful…this cold weather is not for me.

This severe weather did bring up some old triggers. I tried to rationalize with myself but it didn’t seem to help. I had been in the kitchen and I walked into the living room and was talking to The Girl and it felt cold. I glanced at the thermostat and it said 67. Now I keep it set on 68, so I walked over to one of the vents and nothing was happening. I turned it up to 69 and it kicked on??? At that moment…there was no rational thought. I turned it back down to 68 and I swear I heard it every single time it kicked on last night. Every time it did I said “thank you Goddess.”  That is old house shit right there!!!!!  I know this furnace is practically new and that with the extreme cold the furnace was taking a bit longer to kick on. The irrational fear was rearing it’s ugly head last night and I couldn’t be more surprised. I guess praying for 15 years to keep a furnace working stays with you. I was so wound up I even blew out light bulbs last night and I haven’t done that since 2001.

I have been watching a new show on PT’s recommendation…. I like it, I’m confused still… but I like it. I feel like the message might be important, only I don’t know what it is yet. I have three more episodes to go…it’s called The OA.

I probably would have finished it if it wasn’t for The Girl and her new Kingdom Hearts game that she has been waiting for since her childhood.  Dramatic much?

She played it all night last night while I went through my great uncle’s letters. I am definitely focusing my family history Christmas project around these letters and his time in Korea during the war. I plan to go through the pictures this weekend, more specifically I will be looking for Vera. I don’t know who she is but back in 1953 my great uncle was very interested in her. I found quite a few tidbits in those letters last night and I was surprised at how long it took me to get through them. By the end I didn’t struggle too much with the handwriting  but the lighting was getting to me.

Yep….I am of that age. I made it 48 years and now in dim light I need cheaters. I had the doctor check my script today and my power did go up slightly but the reading power is new. Will I go for a progressive lens??? Probably not. If the light is good, it’s not an issue and I wear my contacts most of the time. I do have some bad eyes though….

I have to wear the same power in both eyes in my contacts because it gives me a headache if I don’t. They have always been the same until last year? So I upped the power from a -4.75 to a -5.00. My distance is clearer and I can still read while I am at work…so far so good.

Today at work we had a potluck, which was hard for me. I ate three meatballs which had a minuscule about of breadcrumbs in them but there were breadcrumbs nonetheless. I had a cup of my chicken broth with the meatballs and called it a day. There were so many cookies and desserts and other yummy foods wrapped in bread or a crust…yep it was hard.  I survived it and am more ambitious to find at least two sweet treats this weekend. A teaspoon of raw honey at work has saved me more than once but a little variety might be nice….Zia



About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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