Breakthroughs

Sunday turned out to be my big food prep day of the weekend. I have two new standards…the salt and pepper crackers that I posted about last week….

…and the new cinnamon coconut chips that I first made last Wednesday. I sprinkle this on the plate with my banana every day and it is super yummy. It hits the spot when I need something sweet! It’s coconut flakes, coconut sugar, cinnamon, and real butter…toasted.

I couldn’t find fresh bacon that wasn’t smoked….this may be smoked but it was local in every step. I don’t think I will make it again though….it wasn’t my favorite recipe.

I guess that’s what I get for the slight cheating. I lost one pound from last week on my Monday weigh in. The biggest part of this breakthrough is that I broke into the thirties. Eleven pounds from January 7th doesn’t seem huge to you but the 139 is huge to me. Nine more pounds and I would be satisfied, but since I am not letting the scale dictate my progress….only time will tell.

I had another breakthrough….even though it’s a disturbing one. Tiny messaged me the other day about a stupid eighties remake. I thought I was in the clear from these messages? It turns out he is a trigger…not so much him…but his attitude. Our last interaction went something like this…..

Me…”I used to complain about Hollywood not having an original thought until IT. The remake was so much better than the original.”

Tiny… “I haven’t watched it. Are you sure it’s a remake and not a prequel?”

****Me…in my head….really you little asshole???? I read the book and watched the first movie, when’s the last time you cracked a book you condescending little mother f***er???***

Me in the actual message “remake”

It occurred to me that night….he triggers me exactly like my sister in law triggers me.  Do you think I could work through my issues with her by messaging him a few more times? I’ll not only never see him again but I could care less about what he thinks of me. I do…however….care about my brother and would not do anything to jeopardize our relationship. Maybe that annoying little Tiny has a purpose after all.

This was I how I felt at work this afternoon…

We are going through some growing pains at work and since I am almost done training the new girl….I have no idea where I will be. I am sitting in Crude Girl’s desk temporarily  which happens to be right next to Not So New Girl. She has been there since November and still can’t grasp..well anything. I try so hard to not be mean but the New, New Girl has only been here for a little over a week and she is catching on so much better. I am two steps away from the front desk and on to learning something new so I am in a tricky spot. Can she be saved by more training? Maybe? I don’t think so, but it’s possible? Only time will tell but I am ready for something new.

Our crazy little optician has been crazier than normal. I know for a fact that she has an interview on Friday. I can’t break her confidence but I also can’t break my loyalty to the office manager. I compromised by stating today “I think that if she received a job offer from elsewhere she would be gone.” I wasn’t breaking a confidence but maybe I was giving a heads up….I hope I did the right thing?

It’s only Tuesday and it’s been a heck of a week! Maybe tomorrow I will fill you in on the crazy dreams I have been having lately….Zia

PS…speaking of IT and Stephen King remakes….have you seen the new trailer for Pet Sematary??? The book terrified me…the first movie…not so much. This new preview freaks me out….I’m not sure I can watch this??? I’ll probably man up but holy cow does it look scary! I don’t know how I feel about them switching out Gage and Ellie? I get it…I just don’t know how I feel about it?

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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2 Responses to Breakthroughs

  1. It remake was much better.

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