Recharging

I’ve been working on paying attention to my words. I have been trying for a little while now to change some of my negative self thinking. Queer Eye has brought this up again which made me realize that I haven’t been trying hard enough. So instead of saying that today I lacked all motivation or saying that I was having a lazy day…I am going with today was a quiet day of recharging.

I only left the house to drop some things in the mail at the post office and to drop something off to my aunt. If I didn’t need to do those things…I would have never left the house.

Speaking of my aunt…I had the weirdest dream the other night. My aunt (mother’s sister) needed cataract surgery and wanted to come up here to have it. (eight hour trip)  My local aunt is the one who actually needs the surgery so this was extra weird. I hugged my aunt and she was smaller than me? Both of my aunts in this scenario are taller than me? Doctor took my aunt back even though it was almost time to close. We close at noon on Wednesday and in my dream we were still there at 2:30 and nobody was complaining? That would never happen in the waking world!

When I looked at the 2:30m time I realized that I missed my coffee date with my friend and holy fire reiki master. I was horrified knowing that she would have sat there…being stood up by me. I called her phone and her husband answered. I profusely apologized to him since he said she wasn’t available.

Right before we left work an entourage of landscapers walked into the office. They all looked like skinny Mr T.’s with the gold chains. They were walking around looking at the frames in optical. The office manager said she couldn’t leave because they were there. We don’t have that much to landscape?

I was then in the back in a room wearing a white hoodie. I don’t even own a white hoodie? There was a mailbox spider in there and she was trying to jump on me and I was trying to dodge her. I call the black spiders with white dots on their backs that like to jump, mailbox spiders because they always lived in the mailbox at the old house in the woods. She finally managed to jump on me and I ran to the surgery nurse to try and get it off of me.

On my way out the door the office manager was bringing back a box of movies she was purging. In the box was the first Narnia movie. I remember saying how I loved that movie and then I woke up. Pretty crazy, right?

Friday night I had another dream about spiders. I was trying to get into the basement while strategically dodging the few spiders on the floor and on the walls.

I’m back to spiders again? As long as they are in my dreams and not trying to bust in the house while terrorizing the Girl like the did in the fall. Maybe if I order the spider shirt from Little Fears they will leave me be? https://littlefears.threadless.com/  Or maybe they are trying to talk to me and I am too busy freaking out to listen? That’s probably the case…

In my waking world I would say that the turkey vultures are speaking to me. I was only out for thirty minutes today and I probably saw ten of them. I have noticed that I have been seeing more of them lately. I looked it up in Animal Speak and the one thing that stood out to me was about vulture coming to you when you are having changes in your digestive system…whoa! Dead on with that one.

It was a pretty uneventful day except for that part where I almost burned the house down…. Somehow my chime candle and my charcoal disc of Frankincense merged when I walked into the other room. I never put my candle on a plate like that and I don’t know why I did today? I had to open a window for a little bit but that was it. I was able to safely get the plate to the sink and snuff out the flame with the lid of a pan. I was lucky I didn’t burn myself because that flame was huge! I definitely had some ancestors with me today! I only lost a plate..it could have been worse….Zia

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About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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