Everything feels so “up in the air” right now. Do I stay or do I go? I still have a deep desire to leave this area. I don’t know anything about other areas to even have a plan of escape…but the desire is there.
What is wrong with me? I still don’t know the answer to this question. I took the blood test for lyme disease today. Obviously I don’t “wish” it to come back positive but I would really like some answers as to what is actually wrong with me. I’m not a doctor and this guess is all mine so maybe I’m wrong? I will know early next week…
Then there is work…here is my dilemma. They won’t fully move me into optical so I can still do billing. I don’t want any part of optical without a license….the apprenticeship license program takes two years. Will I really be here in two years? Can I make that kind of commitment? I’m not so sure about that…..
On a more positive note…I’m super excited about my Girl’s Night Out next Friday and my first Reiki one class next Saturday. I have to keep reminding myself that the Girl’s Night Out won’t be like it was in the past. I didn’t make the fancy fairy invitations…there won’t be a bonfire….I’m not even sure if we will even venture outside? I know PT doesn’t like bugs so maybe the last few of us might venture out to the front porch when it gets late. I will load the banisters up with citronella candles so hopefully that will help. This will be smallest group ever and that is exactly how I want it to be.
I sent out reminder texts today for the Reiki class next Saturday. I have three for sure and one I haven’t heard back from. My limit is five. The Girl is also taking the class but I am not counting her in my total. I have the manuals and my handouts and I have my teaching outline ready to go. Fingers crossed…this is my first class so I hope it goes well.
My hair is a hot mess! The hairdresser I have been seeing is excellent at cutting my hair. Sadly she only works Saturday’s and is in a new relationship….those two things equal bad customer service. So now I am back to square one. My ends are pretty scary…my roots are gray (my choice)…the henna/indigo remnants are still a bit blue(not my choice)…and it needs shaped up desperately. Like I said…hot mess. What will I do? I have no idea…it’s up in the air.
Do you sense a theme here? Lot’s of uncertainty…. I have also been having lots of powerful dreams and by powerful…I mean whoa!! I took a nap this afternoon and I swear I woke up glowing…I had no witnesses so it could have been the lingering dream? The verdict is out because I was alone so we will never know…..Zia