On a Mission

I am slightly obsessed with getting things done before I start my new side gig. I might be a tad excessive….today I bought a pack of wet dog food from Sam’s Club. I am only obsessing over six weeks, that’s enough food for more than double that length of time. This is just one example. If anything, this new job will teach me what I “truly” need to do versus all of the things I “think” I need to do. Time management has always been a struggle for me and now it looks like I need to play nice and make friends.

Yesterday was a hot mess of confusion and oddly we left work on time…that almost never happens on a Monday. The phone was insane…the patients couldn’t communicate in a way that made sense and none of us could talk in full sentences. The communication factor was all wonky! Whenever I had the opportunity to talk to another doctor’s office or customer service at the lab, they all reported the same thing. Even my nap at work was wonky yesterday. It was quite unsettling and I’m glad it’s over.

Today at work was slightly better. We even had time to process that one of us is getting married. The New Girl who sits in my old chair is getting married later this month. I guess the new reason to get married is health insurance….what a sad world we live in. Crude Girl mentioned that she has even considered marriage for this very reason. I just can’t wrap my head around it??? Don’t get me wrong….I am not an advocate for marriage but health insurance? If I am going to let myself be put in a vulnerable position it will not be over health insurance. Then again, maybe this is the push she needs? They have been engaged forever and they were pretty comfortable with that arrangement. This seems to be a “fear facing” time in this world.

I stopped over to PT’s after work. I had a box of bodices and a bag of skirts and tops to go through. I am so glad I went…now I have a few choices as to what I will wear while working my side gig. PT even let me borrow one of her costume peasant blouses…I want one of those for myself! I could make that work with lots of costumes…every Halloween. I am more comfortable in dressing for the weekend after tonight. PT was the perfect friend to help with this task!

I have not seen her since she got her stitches out and what a big difference that, along with the new splint has made. Yes her hand is still a little swollen but nothing like it was before….

The bottom is barely swollen anymore, the top is still a little rough but she is healing nicely. Whew! What a relief! 🙂 She was never one for the pain pills…I think after the surgery she took them the day of and the next day and that was it. She is even able to drive now. Slowly but surely she is getting better, thank goodness!

Tomorrow is a crazy busy day and the exact example of what I don’t want my Wednesday afternoons to become during my six week commitment. The Girl and I both have doctor’s appointments and that has never happened before…ever. I have to meet up with my brother because he bought my EZ pass and I need to pay him and register it as soon as possible. I also have the oils his wife ordered. I was hoping to meet up with him yesterday or today but he is busy too so I will have to squeeze it in tomorrow. I have to take the Girl down to the University for help with financial aid. I am guessing the Anthem hack again? We did our part so hopefully it will be a quick visit.

I have a writing workshop tomorrow night as well. Yes I need it…but damn the timing is off. Don’t get me wrong….I’m going, I will just be up late food prepping. I did mention to the woman who offered me the wonderful opportunity of having a published author do a one on one consult that she might want to offer the opportunity to someone else. It’s not that I don’t want it….because I do, but I had to start over. My old story went elsewhere because I neglected it and I can’t blame anyone but myself. I was able to salvage some of the characters and incorporate them into the new story. They aren’t quite working with me yet….they don’t trust me not to abandon them again. They have a valid point but this time is different, I don’t even know how to explain it.

I will print out what I have and bring it with me tomorrow. Maybe she will let me keep the opportunity or maybe she will pass it on to someone who is more ready? Either way…I am still writing. The offer of this opportunity has done wonders for me. I have been writing again…even when I don’t want to write. Last night I was struggling and I just told myself…”just describe the room. Remember your favorite shop in Salem and describe it.”  That actually worked…I didn’t worry about dialogue or plot…only the description. I think I need to do this more often…it really helped.

I guess we will see what happens tomorrow night…I will either be super excited or majorly disappointed…neither of which will affect my writing. The way I look at it…I have six Saturday night’s without any responsibilities. No kids…no dog…no cat..no chores…just me and an IPad. I don’t want to take the laptop in case the Girl needs it for school. The Boy inherited some kind of keyboard for the IPad from his dad. It doesn’t fit my IPad but I think I can still make it work if I MacGyver it? I guess we will see…worst case…I go old school and use a notebook and hope I can still read my awful penmanship later if that is the case.

There are parts of me that are scared about my new job..mostly because it is new, out of town, and my comfort zone. Then there are parts of me that are excited for the same reasons. I have to be better with the time management and my kids are going to have to step up and be more adult. I can’t wait to see how this ends….Zia

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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