Me and My Big Mouth…

When will I ever learn? Probably never (insert eye roll). I surprised myself when I flirted with the man in the kilt yesterday. It was nice to know that I still could flirt when I felt a connection. Big K and Force of Nature Girl have me married off…

I’m not exactly sure what part of “I will never see him again” that they don’t understand???? I will admit that I did a Google search of his name this morning. That new young doctor has been a bad influence on me. Whenever she finds somebody she thinks is interesting it’s my job to find the facts. I leave Facebook to her, I only search public records. So I searched…he is my age. I am really bad about guessing age because I don’t feel 48 so it was nice to know that I wasn’t too far off with this guess.

The artist asked me to get names and emails for her newsletter which is the only reason I knew his name. Sadly I let myself be sucked into peer pressure and looked him up on Facebook. It was quick and only to find a picture to show them. I am always nervous that someone will know when I search them and we are not friends. Out of of garb….I still think he is cute.

They are totally missing the point. This guy is a complete stranger who….I will never see again. Let me stress….never see again! If you asked me on Friday if I would ever consider dating again I would have said “maybe? but probably not…I like my life.” It is true, I do like my life but….it’s been a long time since I looked at someone and said ” maybe…just maybe?”

That brief instant when instinct kicked in and I felt a connection…that was the important part. Not this guy. I imagine he is nice but I don’t really know. I guess if I really wanted to….I could make room for someone else in my life. This is news to me and honestly…I really do believe that was his purpose.

I have one more weekend and then my weekend side gig will be over. I have learned a lot about myself and it’s been quite the adventure. Would I do it again next year? Heck no!  If I am going to be honest….I’m not sorry that I signed up for this year, it was worth it….Zia

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About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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