Thrown For a Loop

I am rarely surprised when it comes to the patriarchal side of genealogy and today I was thrown for a loop! I had lunch with my brother, dad, and his wife. I learned that there was a baby before my dad?

Let me preface this with….I had a lot of talks with my grandmother about the family history. I knew she was having trouble getting pregnant….I knew nothing about a German drug for morning sickness that was given in the forties or a baby before my dad? There was a drug that caused babies to be born without arms? They only lived for a few hours? This is the sketchy part…..there is no birth certificate???? The story today was….my great grandfather jumped the gates at the cemetery and buried the baby on top of his child that died after he moved the family to the states. That’s what basement living will do to you….

I have never heard of this child before today and his existence is unconfirmed…but what a surprise. Will I ever know if it is true? Maybe?…..hopefully? My rational question is….”wouldn’t the first born be named after the father?” My father’s first name is the same as my grandfathers. This new unconfirmed baby had the first name Patrick (no record of family name) with the middle name my grandfather’s name??? It just doesn’t add up? It’s interesting though….I guess this falls under creative non fiction for now.

I had my angel therapy session today and it was quite different than it was five months ago….what has changed?    My first session was all fluffy clouds and loving thoughts….today was like “bitch….let’s get it done!!!!!”

Every place she said she felt an energy build up….I was aware of when she was there. The part about the hip and the third eye? I’m not so sure about? I have a lot of work to do. It’s always sad when you feel like you have been doing the work and the the Universe says “work…that’s not work…let me show you…”

The first time I had this service done…I felt like a wet noodle. This time felt like a struggle for at least thirty% of it.

The practitioner said “wow…there is a lot happening right now!”  It has only been five months since my first reading….what has changed since then?  Lot’s of things…..I need to take some deep breaths and move on so I can move forward. It’s hard to say how much of this was karmic and how much was related to now? The sad but true part is that I have lots of work to do….She did say there was a connection between the right hip and the third eye? Again….I have no insight on this statement. All I do know? Things are changing….Zia

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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