From Beyond the Grave

Okay…the title is a tad dramatic but it’s more effective than ‘from beyond the paycheck.’ When you’re dead lie down was a close second. I am not even sure how to put any of this in words without saying anything?

I can’t even remember what happened last week or the week before, but something was mentioned and the Boy asked to be filled in. So I started at the beginning, which was almost a year ago. I can’t remember the exact words? Was it “why isn’t this department making money?” or was it “why is this department losing money?” It was a long time ago, it wasn’t said to me, and either statement applies. I only made it this far when the boy stopped me and said “when the big boss notices…somebody is about to get fired.” It wasn’t about to…by a long shot.

I started to notice some things were awry in the Summer. I found more in the Fall…lots more. I have mentioned this part before, I began to feel less like checks and balances girl and more like exhibit a and b girl. This went on and on and I just kept finding more and more.  I have facts…stacks and stacks of facts.

Last week the Tiny Narcissist sent back frames. Frames found in drawers, on shelves, in boxes. Frames that were ordered for patient to view and never sent back, there were too many frames for that to be the only reason and if I’m wrong…holy crap!  I stopped counting the money after four thousand dollars.

You don’t know me or where I work but doesn’t that sound like enough of a reason to get fired? The person who was fired has other coworkers believing that the reason she was fired was because she stuck up for another coworker. What??? Sadly they are believing her and once again, she is creating a hostile work environment. I can’t report my findings…it’s not my place. So I have to sit there, knowing the truth and having to remain silent. It’s extremely difficult.

The hardest part is watching poor M. She has had a rough time at work the last couple of months and now she believes someone was fired because they tried to protect her. Her guilt is through the roof…how do you make someone see the truth without giving them the facts? I can’t….and it’s so hard.

Tiny Narcissist who is not my favorite person is actually doing a good job. She really is trying. I just need to stop myself from judging her for her praying mantis personal life. Maybe that’s a strong comparison….she doesn’t actually kill them…it’s just a game as to how much she can get from them. I can’t control her behavior but I can control mine…maybe? I will try harder to not judge her and eventually she will make my work life easier. She has no agenda so it makes it much easier to check and balance. I have to talk to Big K but it looks good for less copying of invoices because a team that works with the flow instead of against it, is in place.

It has to get better…right? I haven’t had to tell anyone yet that the Optician doesn’t work there anymore….I certainly won’t elaborate because I don’t want anyone to think badly of her. Maybe that makes me a “sucker” because I don’t think she is a bad person…even with the low blows she has played.  I hope that her getting fired is the best thing that ever happened to her….and that is all I am going to say about that situation.

Today was the second session of the new writer’s club at the Y. I didn’t get as much accomplished as I did last month but I did get a nice start on another supportive character’s backstory. I still didn’t finish the one from last month but I am hopeful to have them both in place by the March meeting. I get more writing done here than I do all month.

I have a party/mini wedding reception (Rodger and Bree) to plan for Sunday. I only have tomorrow and Saturday to do my running around. Tomorrow I have another dentist appointment and there will be weather late in the day. I will do as much as I can before the ice hits….Zia

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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