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If you find me quiet…it’s because I can’t write about what’s on my mind. I try not to complain about work or the happenings that are occurring but it does tend to happen. It’s a job. A means to an end. The necessary mundane to make the magic. I can go on and on but I won’t.  From now on….I won’t talk about work. I may mention that is was crazy or that there was drama but I will no longer elaborate.

First of all, I don’t want to talk about work when I am not there and when I do, that’s a good indicator of a problem. Second of all, I feel like I need to censor myself when I do talk about work….I am so tired of tip toeing around peoples insecurities….do your job or get out, and please stop your sniveling. So there you have it! I am back to optical who? No more work talk!

Yesterday was a beautiful day in Northeast Ohio! My time was limited because I spent all of Saturday with ML. I did most of my chores, ran to the grocery store and the recycle center before I cleaned off a battered plastic chair and dragged it into the yard. I was aiming for a sunny spot. The dog was on the run and I put the harness on the cat. If I did not take the cat out he would have yelled at me the whole time I was out there. This was not relaxing at all! The dog clotheslined me once and the cat decided that the ground was too cold and jumped in my lap and then down into the grass and then up again. All I wanted was to sit in the sun and read Women Who Run With Wolves but the creatures did not agree with me. I have to finish the intro and chapter one before my next meeting with KW. I am almost done with the intro but this is not light reading. The animals were not helping!

I came across an interesting article comparing Women Who Run With Wolves to Frozen two and all I can say is…mind blown! https://www.katharinedever.com/blog/2019/11/27/the-wild-feminine-amp-frozen-the-movie?fbclid=IwAR1WWKZLYlLoA5WXCCg_Mi5IvkEAUhPgKCuOKWR6Drl6K6brMYspzNklmt4  This article gives me hope for the young girls today and I wish there was a Frozen 2 for me as a child. We are Anna on the outside and Elsa on the inside and I reiterate the mind blown part! Where is my Kristoff? There isn’t one and that’s okay too. I don’t think that’s what this journey is about this time for me.

After I decided to give up, I came back inside and food prepped. Then I sat down and watched the next episode of Outlander. It was very strange to see Richard Rankin on tv when I just saw him Saturday. Normally I prefer the character but not in this case. He has some growing to do as a character but the actor himself has it down. ML was in her glory today telling the tales of the day she met Richard Rankin. That was what Saturday was really about! The Girl was still at her dads when I watched last nights episode so it wasn’t as much fun saying “I touched his arm” to myself. Book club should be extra fun on Friday…ML has stories to share and it was her book pick!

The only other interesting thing is the comments about my hair. It’s like the Universe knows….I am feeling “less than” because of the bad haircut, even though it had been pseudo fixed.  I had a few Saturday at the convention center and today the girl at the grocery store really liked it. I have struggled since the bad haircut and the comments do make me feel better. It doesn’t matter if I feel bad…next month will be one year and there is no going back at this point.

That has been my full moon Monday…Mercury goes direct kind of day. I hope you fared as well….Zia

 

 

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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