Surrender

This wasn’t my first lunar eclipse, I’m sure it wasn’t my first super moon lunar eclipse.  I’ll even bet that this wasn’t my first super full moon, lunar eclipse in retrograde shadow and yet….it still kicked my ass! It’s been a heck of a week all week long.

I feel like something shifted for me on Tuesday. I’m not even sure why I noticed but it was definitely Tuesday. I could elaborate and bore you with work talk but I won’t. I felt a shift and I’ll leave it at that.

When I woke up Wednesday my first thought was “did it snow?” As I became more awake I remembered it was late May and my windows were open so snow was unlikely. Where were the birds, why was everything so still? If I listened closely I could hear a bird or two but not my normal backyard songfest. I got up, looked at the sunrise, fed the cat and dog, and made my coffee. After I pulled my card of the day from my Shapeshifter Tarot, I picked up my phone. I opened my moon app and it said total eclipse….which explains the silence. Even thought it wasn’t visible in my neck of the woods…nature was very aware at was happening. By the time I got to work it just said full moon, so I knew the event was over…the energy, not so much.

Yesterday was like a roller coaster and somehow I managed to remain calm which is so unlike me. Some big things happened and still worked out in the end. I’m not sure where this calm is coming from?

Even today…I had to work in the office down South. I left early which is rare for me! I figured I’d get there seven, maybe eight minutes early. During the windy, bendy part of my drive I ended up behind a large, slow moving farm vehicle. I couldn’t do anything, especially with the big truck in front of me. This part of my drive is where I usually roll down the window and inhale deeply and as often as possible. I had extra forest inhales today. Somehow I managed to still pull in at 8:01. So much for being early and there were three patients there already.

The day was crazy, we were all overwhelmed, and yet…nobody lost their cool.I stopped at a Tractor Supply since I was in that neck of the woods and bought a chicken coop. It was a miracle that they got it in my backseat! It will stay there until the Girl and I are ready to put it together. No way can I/we remove the 170lb box that was forced into the backseat of my Honda accord. We will figure it out, we always do…

I left my house at 7:12am and didn’t get home until 6:30. It wasn’t a stressful drive and I had no part in the heavy lifting of the chicken coop and yet…I feel like I had been hit by a big truck. It’s barely 9pm and I have already showered and will most likely be in bed shortly. Normally I go to bed around 10:30-11:00…not tonight.

This moon has definitely pulled some punches  and I have been lucky enough to be able to surrender to the madness and roll with it…so far. I have a feeling that June will be pretty intense as well….I could be wrong, let’s hope…Zia

About dragonflyzia

I am just a woman finally accepting that I was never meant to be in the box. I don't fit into any stereotypes, please don't try and label me, that doesn't work either. I am embracing my uniqueness in ways that are new and challenging to me, so that I may continue to grow and never stop learning.
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